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2009-08-01T01:13:00.000-07:00

I've changed my blog link to

http://withlove-ning.blogspot.com
http://withlove-ning.blogspot.com
http://withlove-ning.blogspot.com

2009-07-30T01:34:00.000-07:00

OVERDUED PHOTOS
We were all damn drunk ,check out our drunk face ,so ugly :(

Imitate of Uncle Hui and clinques .Laughs !

I may be updating again in the night ,more pictures to go if it's not unglam .Pictures all taken at Dragonfly :D

I've regretted doing something a few days back !Alika should know what I'm referring to .Damn uncomfortable with ''not auto'' people .

2009-07-29T05:06:00.000-07:00

Prawning @Jurong
Met up with GR then went to fetch my girls (Joslyn and Geraldine) before heading down to Illuz while waiting for the rest . None of us knew anything about prawning so we only tried it out .

When Yihui caught the first prawn ,he was damn happy and I went to take a picture of him with the prawn without him noticing it and he went :'' Eh ,why got flashlight ?!''

Laughs !

30 May 2008

I believe it could only be a history .I tried hoping for more but I find no reasons for me to deserve only disappointment .You'll be the best .

2009-07-27T23:19:00.000-07:00

I need shopping so badly !
Anyone wanna join me ??Tag me if you're interested !
LAUGHS !
I'm starting to love making new friends ,am I sick or what ?

It's time to party .

2009-07-27T23:04:00.000-07:00

26 July
Suntec ,Illuz ,Newton ,Gloria Jeans Gloria Jeans with Uncle Hui after supper at Newton .I'm so sleepy after days of work to and fro Illuz and Exhibition held at Suntec .

The exhibition held for 3days at suntec .I was working with Cindy :D Both of us ended up feeling damn restless on the 3rd day ,falling asleep in Yihui's car had been a habit for these days .

24 July

The little puppy Wee picked up on his way home .Uber cute but a weak one .

@ Dragonfly .Nicholas ,me and Sb .

Orleng and I .

Super busy with nothing these days ,I need a break .

Had been going Dragonfly these days and I had fun .Though these little happiness wouldn't last for a lifetime but I hope it'll cure my agony in no time .

Love is passionate yet it's like a blade

2009-07-22T08:48:00.000-07:00

Something I've realised after walking down this path till so far .I've got good friends but I've got no true friends and that's the reason why I'm always alone even when I needed someone .

I've met ..
Someone who'll bring home a little puppy that wanders around void decks ,someone who'll feel upset for his closest family ,someone who'll protect me by all means when I'm in danger .He's hard on the surface but deep down ,he harms nobody .I've met this only one who've done so much for me .How could I bear to let go ?I couldn't believe my eyes ,wake up darling .I know this isn't you ...

2009-07-21T09:44:00.001-07:00

Stay on this page ,I'll be back with pictures soon :)

Loves ,guys !

2009-07-15T20:21:00.000-07:00

13 July 2009
Headed to bugis with Ahwee to get his sneakers from top man ,a gift from me to him .Dropped by Arab street to get crystals for my nails .Met up with Cindy and priscillia for a little while there as well :) Home aftermath ,I'm restless after these days :(
Joslyn send me the rest of the photos taken on 11 July .

Monkey ,Jos ,me and Geraldine .

Geraldine and I

Max ,Jos and me .

16 June 2009

I've got a hectic schedule for this upcoming week .Gotta keep note of every event in case I miss out something much more important .Interview this coming monday for retail position ,hoping for a success job .Though I wouldn't earn much but better off earning nothing .I ought to be serious this time ,I wanna save up and at least being able to survive even after getting myself a hell loots of apparels for myself !

I'm off to daydream ,bye guys ! :D

P.s I don't wanna get affected by how you're behaving because you are who you are ,I won't stop you from doing anything but don't ever betray my trust .I wouldn't stop running away either .

2009-07-13T21:54:00.000-07:00

12 July 2009
Went Malaysia with Baby ,Kk and Melody .They went for their haircut and chemical treatment while I went for French Pedicure ,not an obvious bling but I like :D

Went for their seafood and I'm dread for it till now .Fingers licking good ^^

11 July 2009

Went for work ..

Dropped by Mouzzy while waiting for the time to tick .

The picture above don't look like me .Laughs !

My favourite heels again !

After work ,Alicia came to look for me and we cabbed down to Dragonfly .Baby and Max was there waiting for us .She was wayyyy to drunk to party that night .

Met up with Jos .

Went Powerhouse with Geraldine and bumped into Jason's friend .

Just dance ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Was damn high after powerhouse or should I call it drunk ?

10 July 2009

Went town with Baby for shopping .Bought a sneaker and a bag while he got a sneaker from Zara .Met up with his clinques at Cine for Kbox and HK cafe for dinner before heading to Boat quay .

I'm loving my sneaker !

The bag that I've got .

P.s Everyday spent with you seems like it'll last forever ,I don't wanna lose this thought .

2009-07-13T21:45:00.000-07:00

8 July 2009
Went shopping before heading for work .Got a dress from Topshop and a heels which I've been loving for 3months but their sizes are limited so couldn't get the chance to owned it till today !

Nah ,the heels ,nice right ??Its from Charles and Keith ,I love their shoes and I became a member .Hehe !

Reached workplace and I ordered dinner .

Spring Onion Fish with rice .Guess how much this cost me ?It's always about 4bucks or 5bucks(the most ,right ?) Kopitiam food leh !

$14.50 OKAY !I can order KFC instead lor !

2009-07-13T21:38:00.000-07:00

7 July 2009
I went bugis to meet up with CindyNah and Yingying .Didn't get anything as I've been shopping for the past few weeks .I got one nail polish together with Cindy which is damn bling but hard to apply though .

Look at the sequins !

2009-07-09T23:13:00.000-07:00

Anyone else wants Black or white masks or even Collagen eye masks ?
I'll be capping tomorrow afternoon :D
Visit http://femmening-instocks.blogspot.com

Thanks for support babes !

2009-07-08T00:20:00.000-07:00

I found out something that I've people coming here with a comment which I've never found out .Some were concerning messages while one is Sth's kin .

Alright ,something is driving me berserk to the extend that I'm feeling amused over it .If you're still reading this page ,you'll eventually know who you are .Firstly ,I don't know the reason for you to dislike me however ,I've tried my best to not let your 'dislike' affect my relationship with him though I'm often feeling damn disturbed .I hope you'll even stand in my shoes ,if you ever had a similar situation whereby your bf's sister who's older than you coming to your personal page and tagging something that'll make you feel uncomfortable ,what will you be thinking ?I call this ''rude'' .

If I ever know you before your bro and had grudges before ,I'll kindly understand the situation and accept it but one thing !I don't know you at all even after being with your bro for a year ,I've only seen you twice or thrice .I don't know what you have against me or anything else .And you said you've dislike me since last year ,hello ~ ,I doubt I know you since then as I've never appeared up on your house before .

I'm not being pampered ,all these are between me and your bro and you'll never understand it clearly .Your brother doesn't see you as a sister who'll come my blog and tag me and I've closed one eye about it .If you doesn't like me then ask your brother to end everything with me ,don't have to tag /comment me and in a sense of asking me to leave .

I'm really affected by having a bf's family grudges .I'm not able to clear this ,I'm only replying your comment .

2009-07-05T01:45:00.000-07:00

I've disappoint someone dearly to me .I'm selfish ,I'm harsh yet this is my way to stay strong .I'm so selfish that I'd rather hurt him than allowing myself to get hurt .The only thing I hope for is that he'll believe me once again though it's something which he've got tired of .

I'm feeling bad right now ,I got to do something to ease this pain ,goddamn it !

I'm regretting something .I've neglected someone's effort .We've promised to make this out together .What the hell am I doing ?

2009-07-05T01:36:00.000-07:00

Boat Quay ,Jurong ,Tour
Without foundation but with eye make up ,do I look ''acceptable'' ?

Below pictures are taken when I'm a little drunk so I might not look ok .

With Miki

Halfway thru ,my precious came to look for me (suppose to be a surprise) ,sweet yea ?:D

''He was actually down with his friends lah'' .

Supposingly I'm going to Fly but something happened thus I head down to west area instead so no Flyfly and Nana :(

2009-07-02T07:47:00.000-07:00

02 July
I went for facial :D:D:D:D
Damn shiok but my face is hurting and will be having lots of red spots at the same time yet it's worth all pain .
The beautician advised me not to put any foundation on at all times to keep my face unclog as I'm always staying out late .Wouldn't I be fugly ?
Dragonfly tomorrow with my girls if nothing goes wrong .

Good night readers !

2009-07-02T07:31:00.000-07:00

01 July

29 June

I've got new heels ,I'm loving it ~

Gold is nice as well .It would be best if I could add on several crystal and it'll be damn bling .

I wanna have a haircut ,my fringe is too long ,giving me a shaggy look :(

2009-06-28T23:19:00.000-07:00

25 June
Bugis ,Illuz
If you know me well ,you won't get to see me wearing slip on-s at all .It's my second time :D
My new denim shorts ,I look like a kiddo in it .

Illuzion next and we cam whored .

I want go dragonfly sooooooon .

2009-06-27T01:52:00.000-07:00

http://femmening-instocks.blogspot.com/
I'll be doing preorder of the masks I've just advertised .
Shiseido black and white mask ,$1 per piece .
Collagen eye masks ,$1.20 per piece .(updated)

Visit webbie to order ,thanks :)

2009-06-26T04:09:00.000-07:00

I love the sensation of doing a mask :D
I'm introducing you two affordable and satisfied product from NRWZD used by me .I'm not paid doing this advertorial by the way :) Shiseido black mask ,its about $1-$1.50 in most of the blogshops .Effectively removes Blackheads & Whiteheads in just 30mins ,Has Pore Tighting ,Strong whitening effect and Strong cleansing effect.
Your pores will feel tight after removing the mask and you can feel the cleaniness sensation .No sticky or oily touch after use .

Next was ...

Collagen eye mask .

As you can see ,I've serious eyebags and dark circles around my eyes due to lack of sleep but just one use of this collagen mask ,you can see the difference when your eyebags eventually disappear within an hour .You can put on the eye mask and go to bed immediately but for not more than 12hours .

Try these readers ! :D

2009-06-25T03:47:00.000-07:00

I knew about it ,my hair is very funny in some ways .I'll do something about it soon .
Headed Bugis with STH as it's his birthday but it seems like mine instead =X

I love all my shoes !Look at my caged heels :D

2009-06-23T03:40:00.000-07:00

I'm having long hair again but the extentions look damn fake :(
I know I'm gonna receive comments like ;You look better in short hair and etc .I'm gonna reply you one thing for sure ,which girl doesn't like themselves with long hair ?At least I'm not one .

I'll do more strands soon :D

2009-06-21T22:03:00.000-07:00

21 June
ILLUZ ,CINE .

At home cam whoring before heading for work .

Anybody know ways to remove the flash in the eyes ?(The yellow-red circle in the middle of the eyes)

Haven't been sleeping well lately and that causes the eye bag :( Looking so shag ,sucks !
Victor ,Junlong and co came down to Illuz and Ahde was with them .One funny thing to share while I lift the side burnt of Ahde's hair .

HAHA !Some curly hair beneath the bloody long hair .Omg .

I'm sleepy after work but still head down to Cine for supper at HKcafe .

YUMMY .

2009-06-20T21:57:00.000-07:00

ILLUZ ,DRAGONFLY
STH and Alicia

Very smokey as there's always people smoking .Our face damn 'steamed' due to the flash and we're kinda drunk .

YEW TEE ,TOWN ,ILLUZ

2009-06-20T00:39:00.000-07:00

Guess who I meet yesterday ?

STH .

To ??

Dragonfly .

Reason ?

Idk why either .LOL !

Rather drunk when I'm on the way to dragonfly yet I still got to take care of another drunkard ,SYM .So damn drunk after Fly but I like it !

2009-06-17T15:04:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to Yang and Joslyn :D

My mood is getting bad when I'm busy .How ?

Just had a tiff with SZB and Sb .I'm very angry but I'm okay now because of Cindy's one good phrase ;Everyone's doing good for their sisters afterall so ,why quarrel ?

I had fun working with Yingying and Cindy because they're both so maddzx .LOL !

Went Dragonfly with some girls and guys but I'm dead bored there because of some reasons and we had Macdonald's breakfast in the morning before I'm home .I HAD FUN WITH 3 CRAZY WOMEN !Joslyn ,YY and Elysia .

2009-06-16T02:13:00.000-07:00

Thanks friends for your advices ,tags and messages from FB .I've received texts like :
-happiness and sadness is part and parcel of life..stay positive!! :)
-Happiness.lies the joy of your memories..just live it with a straight heart.things will turn out fine..
-Cheer up girl...there's no point of being passive. You only live once, so live it up to the fullest.
And more .I can feel you guys's concern :)

Darling had been giving me several advices too .Thanks man !
I got to keep smiling as I'm counted fortunate enough to have friends like them :)

2009-06-15T06:42:00.000-07:00

CLUB SABAI

I know all of us look untidy with our hair because most of us are sweating .LOL .Bad weather .

No one could stand in my heart other than you so I hope you'll understand me instead of assuming .If I were to run off without waiting for your answers ,I wouldn't even bother about you .

2009-06-15T06:31:00.000-07:00

Had been working for 3 consecutive days ,damn tired with such a hectic schedule but its great because at least I wouldn't be remembering with longing though I'm still missing him .
Anyway ,working on friday was nice .After work ,OS* came to fetch me home :)
SATURDAY
ZC* drives me to Chinatown for dinner before sending me to work .
My girls came all the way down to support me ,they're the best of all .Some got emotional but they still enjoyed .After work was Sabai with Ahjoo &co ,Bunny ,Jimmy &co .Sb and Kailin was with me .
Went Loyang and left to Yang's condo with Sb and Joslyn for a little while .*An fetched us home in the morning .
SUNDAY
Working with an entertainer and her uncle drives us home at night .

I'm gonna rest all I can !
I'm sleepy :(

2009-06-11T19:52:00.000-07:00

BUKIT TIMAH ,BUKIT BATOK

I found myself a lesisure and a khaki for it .It's lan gaming ,Left 4 dead .

It's something like counter strike but at the same time ,you ain't shooting terrorists but ZOMBIES .So thrilling !After gaming with A ,brother came to fetch me home .

Can't get to bed ,many memories flashing in my head ,I need to suppress all pains .But how ?

I know I look ugly here but I'm not giving a hoots about it because I'm happy when I'm posing for this picture .I wanna laugh hard !

Leave me a joke ,readers ! :(

2009-06-11T05:01:00.000-07:00

ILLUZIONS

After that last message ,its been more than 24 hours he didn't contact me .Hey ,guys ,it's really over now ?The end now ?I thought I might be able to forget once I keep myself occupied but I'm wrong .

I ain't a good girlfriend ,I'm not lenient to understand every programmes you're having with your friend .I'm not lovable enough for you to keep as long as you would like to by your side .I shan't be your burden and get stuck in your path to keep moving on .I can feel the pain ,it's punching me hard .If you've made this decision ,I shall go along with the way you want .

1 .........2......... 3..........GO !

Let's see how fast and far we can run .

Ning here wishing you all the best .

2009-06-09T12:18:00.000-07:00

I've never blog about my heartache story once .I've been repeating how painful I'm feeling but none of you knows the reason why .Its 3.21 AM and I couldn't find any bestie to hear me out .Here I go ...
I just called him ,he's at a pub without me knowing .Yes ,I'm being paranoid because I'm feeling uber insecure .Even when I argue with him ,he chose not to care a wee bit .He don't feel he's at fault when he've promised me he'll be home early .

I received a message from him when I argue with him :
"If you know better guy than me then just go .I'll wish you all the best ,I know you don't love me already ."
"If you want go ,just go ." ,"Forget it now ,I think you can end our things"

Sounds funny eh ?When someone doesn't deserve this much ,one will automatically give up .
He hadn't been meeting me for more than a week ,the last time I saw him was a few days ago .He sent me home and he's off just like that .
I don't want to cry anymore .I don't want to wait anymore .
I worked hard for your birthday gift and I stayed up till late to be informed that you're home safely .On the other hand ,on my birthday ,you've made me cry .On our one year anni ,you bring me out to meet your friend .Why should I bloody care about your damn birthday ?

Fuck ,I had enough .You might not care as much ,put in as much ,love me as much but don't ever malign me .

2009-06-09T02:54:00.000-07:00

Will be back with pictures a few days later .
Currently got no idea what to blog about .

Anyway ,click on the advertisement on your right .Thanks readers !

2009-06-06T12:58:00.000-07:00

Just finished work .I'm feeling terrible ,I'm having low blood pressure .Something is pressing hard on my heart making me breathless and my ears are all stucked ,making me having blackouts yet my heart hurts the most .STH quarrelled with me .

I don't know why I went mad ,I just don't feel like ending it with him all because of someone else yet he wasn't prepared to hear me out .How ?Readers ,teach me a way to solve these out and I could stable everything down with him :(

My heart is hurting like fuck .Kill me to ease this pain please .

Guilty conscience or purely avoiding ?

2009-06-04T03:06:00.000-07:00

I was actually giggling to myself when I realise what you are doing .You're just another man ,not different from any other people whom I saw out there ,not different from my friend's/best friend's scandal Bf .Just feel so disgusted ,very disgusted .

I hate to deny that I've not forgiven you totally because you're the one who brought me so much pain .I can't forget the pain when I'm lying in the hospital and the more I can't forget the way you are before these things happen .Just the thought of it ,I can feel tears glittering in my eyes .I can choose to hate you but I gave both of us another chance ,there's only once .Thats what you did to me .I've betrayed your trust once and you made me go through so much pain before stepping back with me yet on the other hand ,no matter how much you've hurt me ,I've HAVE TO FORGIVE .I know ,I'm dumb but I couldn't choose to give up because I'm already on this path with you .

Nothing to me hurts anymore because of your existence .

2009-06-03T03:55:00.000-07:00

Why is my face so round and my hair is so short ?
I hate my eye bags ,the more I hate my dark circles .I hate my genes because I have freckles .Suckkssxx !

2009-06-03T02:32:00.001-07:00

CLICK ON THE ADVERTISEMENT ON THE TOP RIGHT HAND CONRNER FOR ME BEFORE LEAVING THIS PAGE .

THANKS FRIENDS !

I LOVE YOU GUYS .

2009-06-03T01:59:00.000-07:00

Late post
30 May
Amk ,Bukit Merah ,Kimtian Rd ,Boatquay and V3
Its me and STH's one year anniversary but we didn't spent it meaningfully because he's not romantic at all and Hey ,I'm not blaming him for it .I'm just a little not happy ,laughs !
Dined at a chinese restaurant with him before we walked around and getting a few beauty gadgets .Met up with Kk and Melody to get their things done .
And the best thing for the day was ,I met up with my darling girls with wee around with me .First was Mansion at Bq then to V3 . My dearest Luv !

My top made me look freaking fat and the worst thing was I'm beside this skinny ,CAQ .

Baby and me .

He's so damn cute ,I couldn't resist .I know you won't behave like me but I can't be bothered .

Dearie and me .

Come out again soon ,girls !This time round ,I'll wait for the R&B before I leave .

2009-06-02T07:48:00.000-07:00

Out in the morning to work :)
Oh yea ,I've got a job !Are you feeling happy for me ?If you are ,thanks .

Swollen eyes as I'm having insomia the whole night and woke up 7 in the morning ,I'm just too cool !

02 June

Its my second day of work today and I'm very energetic for work because I'm excited .

I went lot one this afternoon .Wondering why am I able to go lot one when I'm working ?Because I'm being fired !That old women just sucks ,I'll tell you the whole story the next time and you differenciate who's wrong and who's right for me ,ok ?

See my HOT PINK nails ,just nice only lor .

2009-05-30T00:21:00.000-07:00

See the photo frame that I'm holding on to ?I made it for him half a year ago but taking picture of it only now .Laughs !

STH accompanied for my interview :D My lucky star did bring me luck .

I don't care what or who is stopping us because I'm being with him .He's someone whom I'm going to spend time with ,not anyone else so I can't be bothered .

But whoever it is ,you're so rude .Yuckks ,just being like a small kidddoooooooo .

2009-05-26T21:13:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DARLING ! Picture of us 2-3years back .
Though we might not be as close as how we are years back but I'm really grateful that you're there for me during some incidents with your mum .I can't really put these grateful-ness into words but ,thanks darling .

It's your birthday .It might not be the best but everyone put in lots of effort for your smile .Hope you enjoyed though some unpleasant things does happens (:

Kelly and me

All of them are so cute lorzxz :D

When it reaches 12 ...

Everyone's phone and cameras were flashing thruout the WHOLE celebration .Just power only !

You should know who they are if you know us .

I spent half a night camping with lightsticks .There's someone with me but I seemed to be enjoying alone .Lol .

P.s ,at times no matter how hard you've tried to please people around you .Some people just despise you .Even with people who loves you ,there's still a handful of people who speak ill of you behind you .How cruel ...

So ..Just ignore these people and do your best in earning money because you can paste a couple of big notes on their lips so easily and I promise you .They'll zip their mouth eventually :)

GOOD NIGHT

and last but not least ,wishing Anqi a belated birthday once again .I hope you'll be happy always !

2009-05-21T04:25:00.000-07:00

Overdue photos on Elaine and Kiat's big day

The guys are all so big in sized and it made all of us look so tiny .
Laughs .

2009-05-20T10:13:00.000-07:00

I'm too unreasonable at times because I'm too crazy over him .

God ,stop this please .Think I gotta stop myself from being paranoid and the only way I thought of is

Washing my hands off him :)

Speaks of the evil

2009-05-19T03:13:00.000-07:00

I looked in the mirror and hold for 5minutes and realised ..
I need contact lenses ,fake eyelashes and great hair extentions .I flashed back the past me and these are the differences with the present me .The previous me will be back soon although I'm no longer with my 'bob' hairstyle .I still miss having short hair but I couldn't bring myself to cut it off again ,haha .Give me the courage man !

Herbal baby put on his ring on my thumb ,how sweet .But TH ,I'd rather you pass me a new ring ,I choose okay ?Laughs*Out for a movie .I love watching movie nowadays ,especially thriller ^^

18 May

Dragonfly ,Sabai .

Weiming's big day .

We should stay at Fly instead ,Sabai spells trouble .

Why is Sabai so boring that day ?I guessed because TH is having probs and ..many bitches were there .''Herbal baby'' did a great thing which was totally unexpected ,know how happy I was ?Finally my hatred decreased after close to 2years .

My mood was very sucky last night ,no form for party .

2009-05-18T06:43:00.000-07:00

17 May

Amk first to accompany Sth to get changed while I do my make up there before heading down to Boatquay .Catch up with the rest there .Drank a little at a very peaceful pub which I don't know the name of it and last stop was ,Sabai .Was a little bored at the beginning when it's empty but soon the atmosphere got high before we realised it's fully packed .Joslyn came down to look for me after her work .Best thing was ,I'm not drunk :) Just a little empty in the stomach .

I seldom update about my whereabouts but there's really nothing for me to blog about .Laughs !Good night ,people !

2009-05-14T21:15:00.000-07:00

13 May

Meet TH and Max at Amk for movie but I spoiled everything .Just because I couldn't differentiate ''A.M and P.M'' ,it cause us our whole night .Just dumb of me .

Had supper there before we head down to Cine .

Dragonfly anyone ??Laughs !

2009-05-13T01:37:00.000-07:00

Ning is so high yesterday ,I drank too much martell with too little coke .
Ning is freaking disappointed because STH choose to lie to her once again .I can sense he's going MIA anytime .I tried holding on to my tears yet my mood still sucks .
I'm having hangover now :( Head damn pain .

I've several nice customers ,thanks for understanding :)

I'm going to have extentions .Miss having long hair like having my little puppy going missing :(

My sis's baby ,Xavier stayed over for a few weeks and I'm his nanny in the day .

Don't let me doubt you .

2009-05-10T21:12:00.000-07:00

I've got an hair cut and its too long :( So messy !

9 May
Boatquay .
People there were all quite friendly ,at least I don't feel uneasy just that somethings just spoiled my whole day .Yucks .
Sb ,Anqi ,Velle ,Jos and Kailin were there with me till they left for Sabai after Mansion while I wait for TH .
THANKS AJKNS FOR BEING SO SUPPORTIVE .

Haha ,my eyes all droopy already .I'm too tired .
And yea ,Andy ,if you're seeing this ,don't have to act like you don't know me the next time .We're still friends like what you say ,ain't we ?

I'm only trying to ..

2009-05-05T22:24:00.000-07:00

I'm not like your friends' girlfriends because I'm Me .
I act childishly compared to them ,I play a fool on you anytime ,anywhere ,I use funny phrases in my msg-es to you ,I buy stupid things for you and even make you look childish joking around with me .

I'm just trying to make our bond special ,I don't want it to look so cool without any special meanings .When I play a fool on you ,I'm just trying to make you remember ,thats me ,thats how I behave and only I would do things like that .When I joke with you ,I'm just trying to make you happy ,I don't want to stress you out either .

I don't want to love plainly like other couples ,I want memories to be special .Am I wrong to have this philosophy ?Someone explain to me .

Opps !

2009-05-04T05:26:00.000-07:00

My blog is getting soooooooooooooooooooooo

BORING !
Give me some time ,I'll be back with photos .

2009-05-01T16:45:00.000-07:00

I need to get my hair dyed and cut .I need to go get my brows trimmed and my face done .I want to polish my teeth and get pedicure .

SOON .....

2009-04-24T00:27:00.000-07:00

Joslyn Tham is backkkkkkkkkkk !
AEJKLNS .

My rantings for after these few weeks ,had been keeping it inside me .
After Ashley's existence ,STH finally thought thru of his bad attitude and behaviour and turned over a new leaf to a nice animal .Though I know whats the main reason of his changes even he denied umpteen times ,I still go along with him ,I don't back out because I'm trying to cherish this little sad relationship with him .You may call him fake or whatever but the fact is that he's still my closest ,like my kin .He've changed and I'm happy regardless the fact that this wouldn't last .

If you're trying to lie or trying to hide anything again ,you can just go .I don't need a man like that .I won't sarcrifice anything for you again ,I swear .

The old word ,birds of the same feather flock together .

If only .........

2009-04-18T06:02:00.000-07:00

If only I can give him up ,forget everything regardless the positive or negative .
If only I could stop myself from thinking about him and having the thought of calling him every hour .

I really wished I could ,you taught me how to love yet making me falling into this deep trap .The only person that could change my feelings within 10 seconds ,STH .You're sucha monster !

Continued of Elaine's and Kiat's big day !

2009-04-13T22:55:00.000-07:00

Grabbed from Ahchu's .
In the morning . These two lovelies FINALLY put on light make up instead of being naked .Look much brighter .

As the sisters of the day ,we definitely got to make them lose face .

Sour ,sweet ,bitter and spicy is surely not left out including the 'guess-the-brides-kiss-game' ,sing retro song to Elaine ...etc .Their first Angbao was a rabak one !RMB and a whole lot of paper .

Look at how we're sweating ,so fun yet it took us so much energy .

And it was bikini time but we left out the dancing part .And we got our hard earned angpao .

Sisters were all half dead with the brothers dragging .Lol !Dinner

All restless alr after a long day in the morning .

Blissful couple that could live in their own world thruout the whole dinner .Lol .

I didn't take picture with my fatfat STH:(

Happy Birthday SZB

2009-04-13T22:45:00.000-07:00

18th birthday to Kailin !
Sorry that I was unable to make it due to the late movie .Shall dine at KTroad soon :)

Having you beside me ,I felt so warmed .Though its coming to an end ,I would still cherish the remaining time that we've got .Every soundly sleeps I have at night ,it's all because of you .You're the only teddy bear which I dread for in my this whole life .

Congrats Elaine and Kiatkiat

2009-04-13T04:42:00.001-07:00

10 April
Went over to Sb's place with Kailin as I'm afraid I won't be able to wake up on time to Elaine's place in the morning as I'm one of the sisters of the day .Kailin told me before we reach that she's not gonna sleep even a wink but on the other hand ,I told her I'm sure that I'm going to rest no matter what .End up ,she sleeps like nobody business and took us a long time to wake her up .

And I bought my Favourite along with me ,Escada Moonsparkle .

We look totally shag that day ,most of them rest for 3-4hours at most .Shaggy eyes and pale face ,totally sucks .

As everything was so rush in the morning ,I couldn't had a chance to take picture of every procedure .One word to describe things in the morning ,FUN :D though it's hell tiring .

Pardon my shag eyes .

After buffet and everything ,I head back home to get my stuffs for the dinner at night and off to Sb's place with Joslyn and Kailin .Rest for a few hours and time to get ready again .

I zoomed the camera and snap shot Tionghwee and I realised I'm kind of sick .LOL .

With my dearest sister ,ducky .

Not much for the dinner part as we were all too tired .

Wishing happiness to these newly weds :) Loves !

2009-04-08T01:06:00.000-07:00

Lioky and I .
Pictures are slightly blur but these are the first few pictures taken with her :) Luv ,come back soon !

Tionghwee got me my foundation after so long on my birthday .Finally ,I can throw away my Chanel's ,Lancome is much better with better coverage and much softer .

Loves !

My ugly birthday photos

2009-04-01T01:12:00.000-07:00

30 March
Very little pictures from Liok as the rest very unglam .Some with mouths open ,eyes closed or crooked chin .Luv ,delete ok ?I trust you .Delete now hor ,thank you ah .

Baby sunflowers from my girls .

Melted piece of icecream cake .

2009-03-30T22:36:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME D:
No flyfly ,No martell ,Not vomitting ,Not drunk this year but a mini celebration with my girls .When I start work and get rich ,I can make everyday my birthday so not to be upset about anything !
Thanks Luv and girls for the cake .Was really shocked to see the cake .

More pictures to come soon ..

Thanks everyone !LOVES !!

2009-03-26T23:41:00.000-07:00

AH CHU !I look so ugly in this picture .

I want to return all my debts soon !Thanks to girls that understand my situation and not rush me but I still feel very sorry .I'm going to jump off the building soon .Its going to be April soon !FAILURE FAILURE !

Jobs please .Part time/full time/free lance .

2009-03-24T01:13:00.000-07:00

Last week ..
Sembawang ,CSC /Batok .
Went for interview with Alicia at sembawang ,quite successful but we've got to wait .Getting impatient !

23 March

Dearie (YY) got me a birthday present ,rebonding at JeanYip .And I meet her up early in the morning without enough sleep all the way to town .Did soft rebonding ,look much natural .THANKS WHYWHY !

Jeanyip provides good service BUT their products not that good as what we should be expecting for the amount paid .My hair got a little too dry then before and frizzy hair is back on my ends .

Big girls don't cry

2009-03-23T08:52:00.000-07:00

I deleted every pictures of you in my mobile ,I'm trying hard to get the fact that I'm losing you sooner or later into my pea sized brain yet I still couldn't stop having watery eyes when having the thought of you .How much pain I'm going through ,I hate to pour my sorrows to my friends .I hate to be looked down at having a relationship in such a mess .I don't want to be laughed at ,we're a couple yet it seemed like a one sided love to my friends and family .

Where is the old you ?You'll never disappear from my sight ,you'll never disappoint me but make me feel fortunate every second ,you'll stand by me no matter what ,you'll made me realise how important I am in the past .Every thing you do make wonders but only the old you will success .You told me you're afraid you're unable to give me what I want but saying this without trying doesn't make sense .

Why am I crying again and again ?Can I smile till my birthday is over ?

2009-03-22T00:44:00.000-07:00

Gonna get this !

Graphic tees ,MaryJane heels and High waist shorts .

Mix and match with anything you want ,you'll still get the look .OH MY ,pretties .

All of it

2009-03-21T06:51:00.000-07:00

Somethings do happen out of our own will ,happened and was out of control and victim will break down yet someone will never understand why it happened because of them .I looked around me and found out ,the word 'fortunate' that I claimed was actually nothing .Little did I know ,these small little things made me thought everyone around me loves me ,unfortunately ,this isn't reality .

I don't ask for perfect yet the 'happiness' you gave me wouldn't last ,over times and times ,history repeats but it still stays intact .Sad to say ,I realise how much I deceive myself .I won't tear my world apart for you .

Love ,Ning .

2009-03-17T02:25:00.000-07:00

Hey friends or whoever is reading this message right now .

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2009-03-14T05:30:00.000-07:00

Late post for Eileen and Mr Gan :)
I didn't turn up for their R.O.M but sincerly gives them my blessing here .Hoping they'll walk down this long road together hand in hand ,everlasting sweetness .

Anqi made me cupcakes about a month ago but I just found the picture of it in my computer .Looking at the picture alone ,I can still feel the sweetness .Loves !

Tionghwee was out a few days ago ,no one could understand how contented my life is although I'm jobless ,motivation-less neither am I loaded yet the moment I feel his presence ,I feel myself smiling .

Trust needs to be gain

2009-03-12T23:02:00.000-07:00

Rumours= Not fact .
So why believe Rumours instead of ..........
I'll leave it this way ,its for you to believe .

2009-03-11T10:36:00.000-07:00

11 march 2009
cck lot one I couldn't get to bed but I'm so sleepy .I don't feel good ,a little uneasy here and there .My hair sucks ,not only the fringe but the whole head .I can't possibly celebrate and appear infront of my friends looking like that ,totally no self confidence at all .

Accompanying me thru my lonely nights ,keeping my heart warm with your sweet concern .I feel lucky having such a friend like you .I don't lack of confidence and was afraid someone might take you away ,it's just that I don't wish to lose such a precious .

With love ,Ning .

2009-03-06T18:32:00.000-08:00

I hate taking pictures nowadays ,blame it on my hair .Reaching only at my collarbone and it looks so thick yet I couldn't get a haircut .How pathetic .
Grow hair grow !Another 3inches alright >.<

I'm sick

2009-03-02T22:17:00.000-08:00

Having gastric problems these few days .Terrible ~
Vomitting ,nausea ,giddy ,wind in the gastric and whirling in the stomach .
Will be updating a proper post soon .

Unique Individual

2009-02-23T18:31:00.000-08:00

23 Febuary
Interview at Macpherson Road ,Lot 1
I went for interview in the early morning ,Liok accompanied me all the way there .Without sleeping at all ,I feel the uneasiness whirling in my tummy .I believe ,we both looked very shag .
I opened my mail and I received letter from Tionghwee and Valentine's card from my dear Miki .I'm very surprised and touched .

The feeling of being remembered by a friend who don't get in touched as much as we used to ,was so comfortable .

From TiongHwee(Wee) .

I don't know what our outcome will be ,I dare not try for I'm afraid of getting my pride thrown for you once again .

Infrequent Smile

2009-02-18T01:38:00.000-08:00

My vision soon became dark ,only part of my flowery orange and dim light flashed thru .
Different horror pictures came into my mind ,I held my blanket tight enough to feel safe .I keep hearing my own heartbeat before I relax my nerve and fell asleep .
I acted like this everyday .I'm too afraid to sleep alone ,too afraid to walk down the streets and corridors in the middle of the night with the knocking of my heels against the rough ground .I'm getting even timid each day ,the thought of losing something smells fishy to me .
How long before will I lose this piece of gem ?
Back to my favourite topic .
Two coach item which I dread for . Gold Ring .

Nude pink wallet .

How sweet are they ,I feel my heart melting .

Get it for me on 30th march ,ok ?

2009-02-16T02:16:00.000-08:00

14 Febuary
HAPPY VALENTINE'S
Mouzzy ,Geylang ,Cineleisure
My sleeping hours changed ,from night to early morning .
My dark rings shows it all .
My skin dullness shows it all .

I love my shoes :)

*Ignore my blueblack .I loathe that scar .Any good scar remover to recommend ?

I look so dumb with that hairband .Lol .

Geylang for Supper at night and Cine for movies .

Caught the movie ''underwater" .Rated it 4/5 ,worth watching !

2009-02-11T00:34:00.000-08:00

10 Febuary 2009
Boatquay ,Orchard .

Was at Boatquay in the afternoon to get some Swaroski crystals .Went town afterwards to meet up with Liok .Was walking all alone and I wasn't familiar with the route when I'm taking the train .

Shopped a little when Sb came to look for us .

I saw a very nice sneaker in Topshop and I actually intended to get for him but ......

That's all for now .

Will update again soon !

Blog shoppers !

2009-02-08T07:28:00.000-08:00

I'm setting up this small business here .Email me at ningz_pink04@hotmail.com if you're interested .It's preorder so I'll take a few weeks before it reaches you :) Motorcycle Jacket 01
$24 !

Grey Graphic Long Sleeves 02

$22 !

Grey off shoulders .

3colours :Purple ,green and light brown

$22 !

White jacket (can be worn as dress)

$30 !

Biker Jacket

Good material ,leopard prints in the inner .

$38 !

Chanel Inspired Bag

Available White only !

$22 !

EMAIL TO NINGZ_PINK04@HOTMAIL.COM

2009-02-08T06:20:00.000-08:00

I want that Barbie phone for my birthday on 30th March !!

I won't sleep well tonight :( I'll dream about that phone for sure !

Visit http://www.push-cart.blogspot.com for more details !

If you're getting it for me ,I promise I'll remember you forever .My birthday present ok ?Lol .

Sincerly ,Ning

2009-02-07T02:04:00.000-08:00

I'm beginning to love that shade of Pink

I'M LOVING IT :D

There's more to go ..

2009-02-04T00:54:00.000-08:00

02 Febuary 2009
Vivo City
Saw this amazing counter display different Oil paintings .Not everyone was born with ability/skills to produce exceptionally different products .If I am ,I'll be glad to be an artist ,born with skillful fingers .How nice :) Enjoyed the breeze facing the sea .

Having that 'one' in you doesn't mean everything .It isn't the end of just finding someone who's irreplacable ,instead its about finding someone who understands you inside out and put the effort to change .

I reminisce only ytd but today ,Ning isn't happy

2009-01-31T12:47:00.000-08:00

It's true that you don't actually need me that much as I do .I can't blame anyone but myself .

I often don't know where you are and what you're doing NOWADAYS .

I like to share the same bed with you as it's the only hours I know where you actually are and it's the only moment I feel your existence .

I'm having flu ,bad sorethroat and giddy =[

I feel lucky

2009-01-30T21:35:00.000-08:00

I'm not a princess .I'm not a rich brat but I feel lucky .One reason is my darling friends ,another who's able to change my mood is not others but My Boy .
Happy 8th month :) We kept quarrelling but this kept our bond strong . If these few earthlings could adore me throughout my whole life .I belive ,I'll smile like this forever .
I've been having long hair since young and I love to see it long and this fact hadn't change at all till now .One man changed my mind to cut it short ,thats him .

I betrayed his trust and compassion towards this relationship once .I admit ,I don't love him that much in the beginning and I'm clueless about treating him well .He often goes bonkers as much as how often I go pubs ,roundings till morning !I've never wondered why till I'm the present me .I stopped hanging out late that often but ..He's the old me and I feel so irritated about it .Now ..I know why he's like that in the past .

We were so stranger at first but he buys me my favourite .The delievery man sent it to my previous workplace ,Mouzzy .

Sunflowers .

At the beginning of our relationship ,we acted so weird towards each other but Kiatkiat forced us to take a shot .

It turned out like this -.-

Though it turned out ugly but thinking back ,everything seems sweet .

There's one time ,I repacked and paint my rooms ,remember ?(Its in my previous post) Ever since then ,I'd like my room to be as neat as possible .And one thing I loathe is ..TOWELS HANGING ON MY WINDOWS yet he got this habit .
However ..one night I find it sweet .

Mine and his .

On my family big day ,he turned up together with me .

My family is like his .He shared my burdens with me .My parents like him and thats the best thing .

I still remembered cystal clear ,he whacked my friends .I thought I'll be able to hate him FOREVER but I couldn't .I was feeling so bloody guilty ,I teared and teared afraid my friends would hate me :(

My friends is just like his friends too .He gets along well with them ,he cares about their lives tgt with me .How much he's worth me to love ,you should be able to know :) I know I'm still young to put everything down for this relationship .I didn't do it but I clearly know ,I've chosed the right man .This wouldn't last but I strongly believes ..It's the best :)

CNY

2009-01-30T00:56:00.001-08:00

26.01.09
'CHU XI'
Turned in the day before only at 6 in the morning and wake up feeling so drowsy .Headed over to both my grandma's place to 'bai nian' .Didn't capture much pictures as my face looked damn shag .Feel like sleeping anytime .
Anqi did my nails for me .Thanks :)

Wishing you all prosperity ,health and luck !

Lunar Of CNY

2009-01-30T00:28:00.000-08:00

GONG XI FA CAI :D

The sweet machine .Over at sb's place .

Goodies at Sb's place .

I've been so tempted to chew on these gummies .So cute in real life :D

Hope to be mine

2009-01-21T23:20:00.000-08:00

Sony Cyber Shot Tseries ,DSC-T700

-4GB Internal Memory
-10.1 Mega Pixels with Super HAD CCD
-Carl Zeiss Vario-Tessar Lens with 4x Optical Zoom
-3.5" Full Wide Touch Screen LCD
-BIONZ Image Processing Engine
*Double “Anti-blur” Solution: Optical SteadyShot and ISO 3200 High Sensitivity
-Improved Face Detection Technology for Children and Adults
-Smile Shutter
-Intelligent Scene Recognition
-Photo Album & Scrapbook
-HD Slide Show with Select Music Playback

Retail price :$599*

This babe here melts my heart ,love it so much .With its pink and 10.1 megapixels ,just an awesome gift from you to me .

2009-01-19T22:16:00.000-08:00

Boy bought me dinner last night :)
Easy mission but with great compassion and I love it this way .

With love ,Ning .

2009-01-18T22:02:00.000-08:00

11 January
Met up with the girls ,Luv and Sb .
Last minute to Halo bar .
Was playing this ->

I'm damn lousy ,don't know if I've problems with my eyesight or my hands .I kept shooting out of the screen .

18 January

Bukit timah for chicken rice .

The rest were there for chicken rice but I'm specially there for their fried toufu :)

You tiao .

The freaking nice toufu with Mayonise and 'Kaya' ???Thumbs up !

Westcoast to relieve stress ,they were dragged along by me .

???January

Mansion with Kiatkiat ,Wee and Elaine .

A very late post already =X

???January (forgotten when)

I've got so many things I hope to get for this CNY .

-Flat pumps

-Accessories

-Grey ruffled top

-Swavroski crystals for nails

and etc ..

I bought only a high waist skirt a week or a few weeks ago and nothing else .Boring CNY .I wanna get that 'AgnesB' necklace ,kept broading about it though i used to like it even more .

2009-01-14T05:04:00.000-08:00

Forever when I regain something back in life ,I'll lose something important .
And I realise something which I'm still holding on tight is gonna be out of grip .I'm afraid ..
I prayed for my happiness ,I prayed for your's too .Why am I so rolatile ?

The only thing I wish for now is U ,her and that person could love me always ,let's stay bloodiest close .

2009-01-09T16:28:00.000-08:00

I miss STH ,but the old him ..

Don't know why you can choose to give up so easily ,can't we really make it out together ?I don't have the courage to give it up because I know ,

Ning won't be able to overcome it without you .

I don't want to end up tearing .

2009-01-01T16:09:00.000-08:00

Welcome 2009
New friends ,new life ,new career ,new future .......
Put the awful past behind you ,let bygones be bygones .Look behind ,smile and start afresh my friends :)
Happy New Year !

Celebrated that special day with my lovelies ,Sb and Joslyn together with PH ,Ak ben and clinque .

Started off to Vivo for fireworks but I didn't made it there on time and I drag some innocent parties along .So sorry =X

In car heading off to our next stop ,Pasir panjang .

A pub located there ,welcoming us warmly 2009 .

Joslyn and Sb .

I'm glad that day ,its a great day cause we belong together .

I feel very awkard at the beginning when I'm still feeling guilty BUT we played ,joke and drink in the end .

I got drunk very easily that day as its BEER !Yucks ,hate it .

Half the group of them .

I wanted to snap a picture of my Baby with her true love but they were too shy for the camera so I got to snapshot them .

Shot 1

Shot 2 ,at least its better than the first :)

Joslyn should be freaking happy at this moment cause I did her a big favour .LOL

Don't smile to the computer pls ! Heehee ^.^

I found out that I can look quite retarded when I'm drunk .

Blood shot eyes ,signs of drunk .

Afterwards some went home ,some went for supper while some went dragonfly .

Better tying up my hair ??

Sick and tired of it already .

My dog and me .

Hope the rest did enjoyed their New year ! :)

2008-12-28T15:51:00.000-08:00

25 december 2008
On christmas .

Eileen and Ahgan

Finally ,they're back together again :)

Love and me .

On christmas that day ,I went to meet brother with Joslyn .Headed to Jeff's place as he's holding a christmas party there .Drank a little there as we enjoy ourselves .

I realised ,I still do have great friends ^.^

Was at lot one the other day and when I'm going home ,Liokleng passed me a bag :]

So sweet of her !

I'm gonna love her alot !Liok ,wait for my big meal and gifts from me soooonnnnnnnnn .

2008-12-27T18:59:00.000-08:00

24.December.2008

It's Christmas Eve ,wondering how each and every celebrates count down this 2008 .Mine was a total disaster .It wasn't what I've expected ,what I've got in mind was ....
-A total chaos with your lovely friends under one roof or in a club ,everyone was cheering ,on the table was Martell ,turkey ,pizzas and everything nice !
This is what I call christmas for this year .
YET ,
Christmas this year with my clique .Headed Timah for supper before chilling there .Thats it ..Though it was totally spoiled but the thought of these cuties does cheered me up =)

My hair looks so messy that day !!

I hereby wish every earthlings a Merry Christmas !

2008-12-25T18:42:00.000-08:00

20th December 2008
Late post as per normal as I've tons and tons of pictures which I hadn't update .

This brother of mine bought me out for Haagen Daz choco fondue as well as movies :D

Caught the show ,"The day the earth stood still " .

I thought I'm the one who'll take a photo of it ,ended he's as fast as I do .

Thanks brother .

After movie ,we headed to Boatquay .

Somethings unpleasant happened then went to Dragonfly ,I'm feeling bad that day !!

2008-12-24T04:53:00.000-08:00

Late post

I wasn't feeling good for the past few days as I've mentioned .

Two sweeties of mine accompanied me thru the night .I kept tearing that night and I've got to urge to drink and get drunk that night .My company of friends were to accompany that night as promised ,ended up ,Liok and Kailin were the only two who were beside me all the way .

Made urgent phone calls ,rushed up and down Bukit batok and Chua chu kang to get this bottle of martell .All nearest pubs were all closed at that point of time ,the two girls got anxious along with me when they can eventually hack care ,they still accompanied me though .

Its not about the money we forked out ,its about the sincerity here .Love you girls .

Thanks ,Darling too :)

Sb gave me words of encouragement .

Sweet ^^

Lastly ....

Anqi's phrase .

LOL

2008-12-24T04:43:00.000-08:00

14.12.08
A freaking late post .
Got prepared and went to meet Brother and Seng that day as I still remember ,they bought me to steamboat at bugis :) Billard after dinner

Head to sembawang ,slacked there while waiting for Liok .Afterwards ,looked for Andy at a pub around Club Nana .

Got kind drunk ,that day was so F*ed up .

Sorry ,Andy ..

2008-12-18T09:22:00.000-08:00

Finally,I've went to hear out my positions ,pay and everything .The benefits was great but I somehow doubt about it ,well ...
Town with Liok ,Eewin and Eewin's younger brother .Liat towers ,baby zara to purchase kid's items .Baby's clothing were all so sweet ,if I'm prepared to stable down ,I wouldn't mind having a children .Shop around and bought two tops from Zara .
Thought through about my attitude and behaviour ,I ought to do some changes .I don't want to live in the present me .

Sitting alone blowing cold wind in the middle of the night ,chatting on phone with you .I really felt you're no longer there .

2008-12-15T01:56:00.000-08:00

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I really very very guilty ...........

2008-12-15T01:40:00.000-08:00

Speak no evil ,see no evil ,hear no evil .

Something not that important changed my life ,everything you see isn't everything you get .I've lost in this game ,I've been a Bitch in this script .My world is too messy for me to continue life in it ,I've lost to myself .

Feeling ..

Guilty ,Hatred ,Alone ,Lost

But I got to accept life because I chose it ,I chose my friends ,I chose to believe .

I kept it to myself ,a little secret in me for so long .I finally realised ,all these while Liok knows whats on my mind ,she spotted me .

She told me ........All these while I'm just playing ,playing along with them to keep myself feeling loved ,she isn't stopping me because she understand why I'm like this while no one did .

I hope to forget ,as soon as possible ,can I leave this world nicely in one piece ?I don't want to jump down the building ,not getting burnt in a building and of course ,not crushed to death .Hmms ....how about taking overdose of Estacy ?That might end up nice .

2008-12-11T10:44:00.000-08:00

Keep it short or let it grow ??

Don't know if I should grow it long anot .I look more mature with short hair but its so hard to manage .

Long hair looks nicer .

Hmmms ..........